Reflecting back can be both encouraging and discouraging. Encouraging? God saved me and is giving me grace to live a life centered on his Son and the wonderful truth of the gospel. He gave me enough sense not to miss out on the adventure life has been with Erin. And then there's 4 pretty special boys. Which makes me wonder where they will be when they're 35. But that's another post. Also encouraging...10 years in the ministry. God has been good. No doubt.
Discouraging? There's a lot that could be said. I think mostly the wasted time. Couldn't I have done more with those 35 years? Shouldn't I have managed my time better? It feels like I could have accomplished far more if I had used that time more wisely.
So there's something to work on for the next 35 years. After all, as John Piper loves to say, "Don't waste your___________" (fill in the blank - life, cancer; in my case, birthday). It would be sad to get to 70 and look back and see that there was no improvement over the first 35 years of life. What will the next 35 years hold? Will I have 35 more? Only God knows. But this I know. I have right now. So do you. What will we do with it? I pray God will help me to serve him with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength...and my time.